Ask yourself: What do you *really* want?
Is there another way to reach your goals?
Earlier this week while I was mindlessly building a party salad for a catering order at work, I thought, Maybe I should be a waitress…
Since I started working at my job, I’ve been exposed to more people who reflect back to me feedback about myself; multiple customers over the weeks have complimented my smile, my face, my demeanor, my patience…
And all these things are just… me!
So what if I just showed up as “me” and got paid tons in tips for doing so? I feel confident I’d make a great waitress.
But as soon as I started down this train of thought, I halted it.
The job I’m at now is great for me in this chapter of life, I thought.
Why would I quit it, or take on another job that would pull me away from restorative time and time to work on my own projects that will help build a life I’m in love with?
The money as a waitress sounds good… Real good. Especially if I got hired at a higher-end facility. But dealing with customers who are rude or entitled doesn’t sound fun…
I dunno what sorcery gave us the sweet spot we have, but majority of our customers are immaculate! So sweet and nice and fun!
We have another store location nearby and I hear all the time how horrible the customers are! One co-worker told me he witnessed his friend (who works at this nearby location) have a screaming match with a customer!
Maybe someday I could try my hand at waitressing… But right now is not the time. Time is precious and valuable, so I wanna be picky with how I spend it.
Instead, I took that initial excitement and thought again about what made me want to get into waitressing:
Lots of easy money being myself: kind, helpful, giving off a welcoming aura, a kind face… Just GENUINELY wanting to help people.
Now… How can I incorporate those strengths that keep being reflected back to me into the business I want to build?
THAT’S the question I began asking myself.
Because even though the idea of waitressing excites me for the money and (assumed) ease, having to be told WHEN I can give that energy to people doesn’t sound as appealing. Nor does not choosing who I get to interact with or for how long.
My dream is to give my all during my most energized times–during the day–and then be able to go into the night relaxing and restoring myself.
Period’s on its way? I won’t plan to show up more intimately with people during that time. Having an off or sick day, or a family emergency comes up? I can move a meeting with a student or client to another day.
I want to be able to do the best for me so I can GIVE my best.
Sorry for always finding a way to bring it back to my mom, but during her last three months I remember wanting SO badly to just be able to take care of myself to any capacity so I could show up better for her.
We both were trampled to the ground, and my energy toward myself and her wasn’t what it could’ve been.
Anyway, this was just how I processed my thoughts around this moment that happened the other day. Please take what you can or need from it as you continue to make decisions for your own life’s path.
Cheers to our nourishing futures we’re building today! 🥂
See you in the next one! :)