Finding Freedom

An update on some changes coming, & a discussion on years of rebranding

As I lay in bed the other night, staring at the ceiling waiting for sleep to wash over me, I let my current journey into wellness and presence marinade over me like a flavorful broth.

“I don’t need to grow fast,” I decided.

“I just need to know I’m able to grow at all. Especially toward the life I desire.”

But certainty about the future is not what life’s for.

It’s not for caring only about the end goal so much so that you can’t see anything else but the glorious and ginormous expectations you’ve built across the finish line.

And, it’s not at all a race.

I’m (re)learning all of this now. Remembering lessons that I’ve forgotten over time.

How one time, I “blew up” on Instagram and was not ready for the presence of so many new people in my space.

It left me mentally spiraling and bubbling over like a cup of instant ramen left unattended in the microwave.

Fast fast fast is not always the answer. It’s one thing I mulled over the longest as I lay under my favorite fleece blanket.

I want to keep my eyes steady on the foundation I’m building, not the finish line. I want lovely, expansive things for my life.

But I want to be ready for them as well.

And I mean this is a sensical way, not an enigmatic declaration where I truly mean I desire to procrastinate and stay in a comfort zone instead.

This brings me to the pivot I’ve recently inspected every angle of.

I can feel the shift in energy as I write every week, how I want to dive deeper in some regards, but not giving myself the space to do so.

The change won’t be huge, but it’s absolutely necessary; it comes with more confidence after a dear longtime friend of mine shared an observation she had about my online journey over the years that I’d love to share with you, too:

From Ditching Adulthood, When She Manifests, Tiny Moments, Losing Orbit, and Cierra Slows Down… these were all seasons of my life. All ways to express myself and the pattern for freedom I always desired:

Ditching Adulthood was a brand I created after college during a time when I grew angsty and feared being told to “grow up.” A time in my life when I advocated for us to never grow up from who we truly are, and what we wholeheartedly enjoyed.

When She Manifests was a brand pivot I made when I really started seeing the results of in-depth subconscious work. I was in my coaching era, my Human Design readings era. I was feeling abundant and understanding of my mind and it was lovely.

Things began to slow down and shift, so I moved here to Substack to attempt to pursue writing. I first (if I remember right) named it, “Tiny Moments,” wanting the intention of the newsletter to be documenting simple moments to be grateful for or to inspect and appreciate a little closer.

Then things slowed down, changed immensely, and the next thing you know, my mom was gone. But I never stopped writing.

Doing it under Tiny Moments didn’t feel right at all. My mood and whole world had shifted and none of my old writings felt right anymore.

That’s when this Substack became Losing Orbit: discovering who we become when we lose our center of gravity.

I love the name on its own. I love using the little saturn emoji, the colors I chose, and everything!

But when I recently began thinking about my rebrand from Tiny Moments to Losing Orbit, I didn’t believe I’d ever be able to write anything that didn’t relate to losing my mom.

Whether I was rediscovering myself or sharing a tender moment I remembered, it all came back to losing my mom.

I wouldn’t be able to show up to write every week or dive so deeply into a self-discovery journey if I hadn’t lost/gotten space from my mom.

And that’s still true today. I have SO many comics to create, both mom-centered and lighthearted random ones.

I have several drafts that all link back to mom too. But as of right now, something about all this is feeling a bit stale and stagnant.

I don’t want to declare that I’m constantly lost and searching and pondering all the ways my mom existed and didn’t. So if Substack is going to continue playing a huge role in my life, I’m going to have to shift some concepts about this brand.

Maybe a little bit more than you’d expect.

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I desire for us to have a space that feels uplifting, whimsical, like a breath or an exhale. I want us to feel empowered but with a tender, softer edge.

I don’t want to say too much, because I’m still not able to place a finger on what Losing Orbit will morph into… But it will morph into something new.

Refreshing.

Lovely.

Desired.

Our space will still be cherished, but different. So with that said, I’ll leave you with something that flowed out of me last week that communicates my current feelings and desires for us in the near future:

I’m at a phase in life where I have the tools & mindful samplings of different energies to REEEEEALLY slow down & dive IN to truly understand what’s DELICIOUS for me.

What feels restrictive?

What do I need to mindfully avoid?

What do I need to mindfully embrace?

I’m just a 30-something on the internet ready to show up, but in a way where we HALT the desire to jump ahead and keep up with everyone else’s lives…

And instead REALLY share with one another what it is we TRULY want for ourselves, our lives, & our healing along the way.

I’m not an expert at anything. I’m not in a headspace to be confidently leading anyone through anything.

My deepest desire right now is to show up & be an initiator for those whose worlds have fallen apart one way or another.

I want to lead as an example of how you get to CHOOSE to show up in ANY space.

You get to learn yourself well enough to know what truly is hindering you, & what’s helping you ✨rise!✨

I advocate for that. For you going at the pace you need to & embracing what you truly need to heal, grow, & LIVE.