Journeying Human Design #001: Creating Space for Joy as Generator
Explaining how Human Design played a part in this newsletter coming to life.
Rather listen than read? Listen to this newsletter post in a podcast episode narrated by me instead.
Journeying Human Design is a series exploring how Human Design is experienced out in the wild.
I don’t believe this newsletter would exist with as much uninhibited joy, let alone at all if it weren’t for Human Design.
But before I get into a series that’ll be sharing how Human Design is experienced in the wild, I wanna explain what Human Design even is.
What’s Human Design?
Human Design is a system that takes when you were born and places it into a system that explains how you’re specifically designed to live your life and show up in the world.
It’s not a personality quiz or some future-telling tool. Human Design is entirely an experiment.
Learning about your specific design, and how to always keep your strategy and authority top of mind when experimenting with your design is what Human Design is all about when living it out.
Being aligned with your design helps so much with any self-doubt you may feel about making decisions that’re best for you.
Even learning to “listen to your gut” can be misleading! Not everyone’s intuition comes from the gut.
In a more proper way, Human Design is a system that uses:
Astrology
I Ching
Chakras
Kabbalah
And more, depending on who you talk to about all it encompasses.
I’m gonna be transparent here and say that this system was created by a white guy, and uses the systems above that come from multiple cultures.
Despite how Human Design came into fruition, people have taken it and created more clarity around it over the decades, and now? It’s been such a helpful tool for my life, and very telling when I’d look into friends and family members’ bodygraphs.
Just seeing the results when experimenting with my Human Design converted me. It may have taken some months, but it felt so good to hit that breakthrough that I’d hear others talk about when understanding their design more and more.
So let’s hop into it!
What Everyone Knows About Generators
One of the very first things you’ll probably run across when learning about Human Design is what you’re “meant” to do based on your type (Generator, Projector, Reflector, Manifesting Generator, and Manifestor).
And Generators–which is what I am and one of the most common types to exist–are meant to do what lights them up.
But uh… What if you’re at a place where nothing is interesting you? Let alone lighting you up? Because that was exactly where I stood for nearly three months.
I sat in the discomfort of not wanting to do anything, and not having much of anything to use for escapism left me to sit in a lot of uncomfortable silence and stillness.
But once I was finally given something to respond to outside of myself (*cough cough* a Generator’s strategy *cough*), and I gave the heightened emotions around it time to settle into more clarity (using my authority as an emotional solar plexus), I was finally excited to do something.
And I parsed down the things I used to believe I had to do in order to make room for more things that actually made me happy.
Making Space for Joy as a Generator
In the HD School I’m in, we learned how important it can be for Generators to do life audits to see what unnecessary tasks and obligations could be eliminated to make room for opportunities that’re actually meant for you.
Because when you’re overwhelmed with too much that you not only need to do, but don’t even want to do, you don’t even really notice opportunities that would’ve been perfect for you passing you by.
People could see that you’re super busy or stressed with a lot going on in your life and pass up presenting something to you that you could’ve responded to.
A Human Design Experiment in Action
Right now, I’m gonna be documenting what it’ll look like to continue to put all my focus on this newsletter, parsing down even more of what I initially thought this gameplan would be: re-learn frontend development and writing this newsletter.
I really, really love writing this newsletter and engaging with the community. And making sure to not only write at least one quality newsletter per week takes nearly all week.
Aaaaaand in a perfect world I’d write SO much more! (I have so many time-sensitive drafts, but refuse to entertain them too much until I have the one main newsletter done for the week).
I love this work, and I love learning frontend development. But I’ve gotta be honest…
The biggest reason I decided to get back into learning frontend development is because logically, I felt it was the only skill I enjoyed and could learn that would someday land me a good-paying job.
And with a good-paying job doing something I enjoyed, I could then take all the pressure of trying to make writing my financially stable income go away.
But I’ve learned fast that THIS is what I wanna do. This newsletter is what’s bringing me soooooo much joy!
This is my “YouTuber telling their story about filming way before YouTube because they always loved it and kept pursuing it because of that love” arc… in, ya know. Writer’s form.
So my defined hanging gate 4 (it’s in the top triangle toward the right if you look at your own bodygraph) has been constantly nagging me, wondering how will I make a consistent and stable income now?? And this has also resurfaced some money mindset issues around safety and money, which manifests in unhelpful ways I’m showing up in my life.
But!
But… I really do want to see where sticking with what’s bringing me immense joy as a Generator will get me.
Because I mean… doing it the other way…
The “logical” way.
The forced way.
The money-desperate way…
Haaaasn’t really worked out for me in the seven years I’ve tried it so…
You grabbin’ your popcorn now to see what happens?
Yeah, me too.
Now lemme ask you…
Did you take a peek at your own Human Design chart and saw something you didn’t understand, but caught your eye?
Ask a question about something from your bodygraph and I’ll answer it here! I do Human Design readings, after all!
Thanks for reading!
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