An intimate letter about relearning unapologetic self-expression.
It feels good to finally feel good.
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People usually think transitions have to be this big, loud, sparkly, come-up. Sometimes they can be the revelation of softening, and understanding how right that truly feels.
I’ve been feeling this shift since last week when I attended my first Substack community Shoutout thread, and while I was there I found new writers to indulge in.
But I also found a few that mirrored the writer in me that’s been buried beneath years and years of cookie-cutter marketing and online business teachings. And I really, really missed her.
I realized I was trying to add more to everything I did with my newsletter because deep down, I didn’t believe my writing alone was enough.
But with how much I love writing–how ingrained it is in me to communicate and express myself through writing–and having nearly two decades of validation from friends, family, teachers, professors, and strangers telling me I had a gift as a writer… it astonished me that I still felt a need to do so much more with my current newsletter endeavor, cluttering up any impactful messages and intimacy I want to create with the community I desire to build.
I’m no longer doing that now. There’s so much I miss doing! And I can’t do it when I layer onto my writings narrative podcasts for everything I write, and all these extra graphics that would be unnatural if you were writing to a close friend.
And that’s my goal: for you to always feel like you’re talking to someone you’re close to.
Just creating space in this way has opened up time for me to have more writings channel through. I’ve sparked a new excitement for my existing mailing list I’m still feeling out, and it all has to do with my love for Human Design.
I’ve fleshed out some future emails, I’m taking notes on my favorite copywriting and storytelling courses, and I have an idea for how I’m bringing back my Human Design readings.
For the first time, I’m showing up exactly how I want to when it comes to online business.
I’m placing my joy above all else in all I create and live out. And that decision is being mirrored back to me in my life and mentality.
I no longer will allow social media to become cumbersome. It will only be a place for connection and to share an extension of myself.
To be embodying the identity of someone who truly does choose to create more than she consumes is truly magical.
Lately, I’ve been able to visualize my future clearer and clearer when many years ago, I couldn’t even imagine the next three minutes ahead of me.
And even though the visuals that excite me ripple just a bit as my life continues to morph, I can say with certainty that I’m excited to live out creativity, joy, and peace.
There’s several writers and editors I look up to; they have lives I wanna model after:
I’m gonna have a life where I’m writing and running a Human Design business solely from my mailing list, and creating for fun.
I’m gonna have the life where showing up on Instagram means posting photos that remind you of Instagram back in 2012–more of a photo album, less of a polished marketing machine.
I’m gonna have a life where I get to save money for security’s sake and dreamy experiences and investments and treat myself to meals where the plate is wide and white and filled with infused oils and swipes of puree and tiny pieces of wilted and charred vegetables.
I live a life where my self-sustaining income comes from having fun with the community I build on my growing mailing list, and I get to write and create and sell and share and withhold whatever else I want in my time outside of that.
I HAVE a life that makes me smile and grateful and has me recognizing just how blessed I am.
And I’m so excited for all the opportunities I now truly believe are possible for me.
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