I'm listening to the moon this time.
I'm eager, but I'll wait.
You could tell last week’s post was written pretty hastily, right?
Right.
I hope it doesn’t sound like an excuse for me to “flake”… but maybe I moved a bit too fast into trying to create a consistent schedule with anything.
Hardly any of my old writings feel… right anymore. And that makes me a bit uneasy.
I spent nearly 2 hours writing an Instagram post… who does that??
Honestly? It should’ve been a big part of a Substack post instead.
I dunno if it’s the cancer full moon (and my moon is cancer on top of that), my cycle coming in the next day or two while writing this, or just a realization…
But I’m still a bit overwhelmed by all the possibilities that are now available for me, and trying to figure out what I really wanna do.
Moon Stuff
I’ll run across and read about the full moon and new moon happenings when they come about to see if anything sticks out as a reminder for me to focus on in my own life, and this full moon hit me with a lot of validating things that feel right at this time for me:
Start super slowly, and move slowly
Feeling overwhelmed
Themes of security, emotional processing, self-nurturing, rebirth…
Revising something
Feel everything
Inner child and spiritual healing
I was thinking about many of these things before I read anything about it, so it was just validating to see for this season of my life.
I’m still pretty certain I wanna focus on Substack as my main platform forever and ever amen…
But do I also wanna do YouTube? I kinda feel like documenting this journey on YouTube…?
Would you watch?
Should it be Substack only?
Hm.
I really have to revisit the articles and classes I loved but couldn’t wholeheartedly take in because of caregiving in the past.
What will my career path be?
Will it involve going all in on Substack?
Should I focus on something else for my income and make Substack my passion project?
I. Don’t. Know.
Which is why I may need more time to think.
I think I felt pressured to start this year strong. It’s a new year! And this is the first year I’m able to fully focus on myself and my needs and future.
But I think what comes with that is making sure I build a strong foundation and reflect on all decisions I make along the way.
Maybe even play around a bit with options, without making any commitments yet.
Yeah, I think that’s what I’ll do.
I’ll try my best to show up here weekly, but I’m definitely planning to take my time with figuring out what my next steps in life will be.
I think that’s pretty warranted, and I’m glad I’m finally giving myself that permission while still keeping you in the loop.
UPDATE: So the day before posting this, I attended a support call by one of my business mentors and asked about what types of system would be best for me to create during this time.
I loved her answer for me right now. When I’m ready, I should just focus on building my consistenty muscle when creating online. Do what has been easy for me and lighting me up (aka: writing, especially on Substack).
And I’ve been enjoying posting more frequently in IG stories, so those will be my two main focuses for now.
I think I even came up with a really good draft idea or two I’m eager to craft for you!
So I’ll either see you next week, or I may step away for the rest of January to build up some articles and just… get a better understanding of how I cohesively wanna show up on Substack.
We’ll see! But either way, I really really appreciate anyone who decides to stick around and is patient as I figure my new life out.
I’m really excited to make writing more of a priority in my life again; it’s always held me. It was literally the first and only thing I wanted to do as soon as I lost my mom.
I’ve always felt writing played an important role in my life, and that innate moment really solidified for me.